I think most of us have at least a touch of that "had I but known" - I know I've got a cartload. And, as you know, other than a handful of distant nephews, my only living relatives, including in-laws, are my daughters. I've gotten used to it, I suppose. Still, I completely feel why April is the cruelest month, and I'm right there with you.
I think this is part of my "So this is how it is now...and go from here" mindset. I barely remember not being alone. But I miss them, individually and at holidays as a group, nearly every day.
I think most of us have at least a touch of that "had I but known" - I know I've got a cartload. And, as you know, other than a handful of distant nephews, my only living relatives, including in-laws, are my daughters. I've gotten used to it, I suppose. Still, I completely feel why April is the cruelest month, and I'm right there with you.
I'm pretty sure that if I haven't gotten used to it after all these years, it's pretty much going to stick around.
I think this is part of my "So this is how it is now...and go from here" mindset. I barely remember not being alone. But I miss them, individually and at holidays as a group, nearly every day.